Ignore me as much as you want, I am used to it now

 

A second away seemed like an eternity

Promises were so meaningful
Willing to give everything away
Gave indeed everything away

And what did I get in return?

Crudeness of behavior

I don’t deserve
Blames of never understanding
When deep inside you know who else would?

Love or lies?
Sheer deception
Been naïve
But never, to not understand the difference

May b you lost the attraction you once felt

I just don’t have the strength to row our boat alone anymore
Cannot revive myself to the older me
Without having the older you

In my quest to have you

I think I have lost you
Stranger you have become

Where does this change come from?

Seeing a side that I never thought was in your nature

Or my subconscious part was ignoring it all along
Brutalizing the vulnerable me
Cried all my share of the tears

I am just so tired

Believe me
The monotony I hated
Has become a routine

Ignore me now as much as you want
My brain is just too tired to process it all
My feelings for you increase with every second
Helpless I feel as a result
 
Unable to comprehend you anymore
I have resigned myself to the new you
Prayed every moment to have the ‘you’ I initially loved back
Futile they have always been

Ponder over what I have gone through for you just for a day

Is my request
You will understand the pain, the gain and then again the pain you are putting me through
I just want the peacefully colored picture of OUR life you once showed me, nothing more

Is that asking too much?